I don’t matter.
I just want to cry. Excuses all over the place and I can’t take it.
Only when it’s convenient.
I wish I could have froze time.
I want everything the world has to offer and I know who I want it with.
I’m back to cuddling with his cuddle pillow. I think I might go on the treadmill! I’m done feeling the way I have. One day I’ll be enough for him again. I have to stay positive.
I can tell this is going to be day two without sleep. I wish I could just go back to last night when he was holding me as close as he could. For the first time in a while I felt wanted. I hate that the man I love had to go through what he did. I hate that I wasn’t a good enough girlfriend for him. I wish we could just get away for a while. For things to be simple again like they used to be. I want my best friend back.
Watching Raymond alone isn’t the same. You also know I’ve had a really bad day if even savannah can’t make me laugh.
I really messed up this time. I don’t know how to fix it.
I’m not okay and tonight I can’t be okay. My feelings are hurt and I have no one to talk to.
I need to stop getting my hopes up.
I just wish he would get it. I hate feeling like the outsider in his life.
It’s my dads birthday and he should be here not Todd.
I don’t know why today I thought of how he used to read to me and it put the biggest smile on my face. I want those simple moments back.
Only one more 28th to go!
Just focus on that Andrea! As much as it sucks now it’s going to be over soon.